My kite is in a tree... For now at least.

I don’t want to be that random girl anymore. I don’t want people to pop in and out of my life and then walk away with memories they will “always hold close to their heart.” That doesn’t cut it. Do they plan to come and go as they wish? Do they plan to stay only for a little while? Do I smell or something?

When you have gone through a bunch of Victors without ever finding even just ONE Charlie, you start to get a little discouraged. Dating is tricky. You scope out your options, talk to a few, see a few, and then there is that one who you don’t want to miss out on. Your hopes, flying as high as a kite, soar higher and higher with each passing day. You think maybe your search is over. Finally, you can stop throwing yourself into the (sometimes) harsh world of dating and settle down at last. But of course, then it happens… and you are alone. Yet again.

That one, well, he was the one, right?! You can’t let go too fast. Don’t give up hope! He is the one who displays every characteristic you could possibly want in a guy: Hilarious, smart, adorable, caring, oh and did I say hilarious? Your hands even looked kind of perfect tangled together. How could he have been a dud? Surely it was just a mishap; he isn’t really like that, he was just having an off day. He’ll call you back tomorrow and take you out on one of those fun dates you used to have, but haven’t gone on for a few months… yeah. Maybe that is where it went wrong. You stopped going on dates! Maybe you can salvage things by going on more dates! Stupid. Don’t waste your time or money. Things aren’t going to work out and you know it. It is time to finally let go. So Let Go.

Sigh.

Charlie, where are you? I pray about you every night. When you find me, I hope you accept me for who I am and what I have been through… because it has been rough. I am looking forward to meeting you. I think our intertwined hands will look even better than any Victor I have ever been with. It is going to be the best and scariest day of my life when I realize you are here. The best day, because we’ll finally have found each other, and the scariest, because then I will actually have something to lose. I don’t want to lose you. I pray that we won’t miss out on each other. Take your time, Charlie. I have a feeling that you are well worth the wait.